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i have a new LJ _divine_fears

this will be my last public post. my journal will now be friends only.

( missing someone sucks )

(clears throat)

SATURDAY
i woke up around 8ish and got ready.
picked up blair at like 920 and went to walgreens.
got to richards house and left for the drive to hollywood.
the drive as always was boring. ryan slept the whole way there.
we checked into the hotel at like 4 (i think).
and watched tv for a bit. we all started getting really tired so we went in search for food.
we found a fuddruckers so we ate there.
after dinner we went back to the hotel for a short power nap.
we left for the knitting factory at like 615 and got there around 630.
we found kim in line with her cool posse of 13 year olds (your sister is cute) and waited in line 3 seperate times before being allowed in.
i saw jack and daniel out front so i went up to them and gave them a huge hug.
they were so surprised and happy to see us there.
the knitting factory has 3 different rooms, steel train being in the smallest room.
the stage was the tiniest stage ive ever seen.
dusty rhodes and the river band played first.
they were good.
they had a really crazy kid who played the accordian and a really adorable girl who played the violin.
she's my hero.
el oso negro played second.
they rocked even without monique.
and thirdly it was time for steel train.
the set wasnt their best.
matt was having huge sound problems with the acoustic, but overall i still love them. and because their "special guests" was patrick from limbeck.
he's freaking awesome.
cant wait to see him and robb tonight!
after the show i talked to matt.
he was in a real bad mood.
its ok though i forgive him.
blair and i talked to patrick for a bit.
then we went outside and watched all the crazy hollywood folks.
like my boyfriend, the alice cooper look-a-like.
we talked with daniel for a bit.
then we made real good friends with el oso negro.
we talked to them for a bit.
evan invited us to some after party so we made our way back to the van and to the party.
we parked and called evan.
couldnt find the party but found jack wandering down the same street looking for the party too.
we got ahold of stuart from el oso negro and they got ahold of evan and somehow we all made our way the the "party".
ok now about this party.
these girls worship the movie Almost Famous and besically want to be Penny Lane.
their apartment was really neat though, however these girls were out there.
they mostly talked in abbreviations.
ex. "alkie=alcohol" "the the form boys we said sup=tell the guys in the format we say hello"
scott was getting pretty frustrated which made me laugh.
i sat on the couch in between scott and daniel.
talked to daniel a bit.
talked to scott for a short sec about how lame the party is.
then daniel got up and some weird kid sat down next to me and attemted to strike a conversation.
i kept shutting him down with one word replies.
finally i went and sat down and talked with the guys from el oso negro.
they were hungry and we were bored so we decided to go eat.
we said our goodbye and gave hugs and made our way to Canters 24 hour fine dining (ha). we ate and then made our way back to the hotel around 4.

SUNDAY
we woke up around 930.
we got a text from stuart around the same time saying that they decided to drive home last night and they just got home.
i dont know how they did it.
we got ready and checked out.
we then went to jamba juice and made our way back to phoenix.
we all pretty much passed out right away.
which really sucked for richard who was driving.
but about 10 or 15 minutes before blythe we saw the steel train van.
it was exciting.
we stopped at the gas station where blair and i saw jack's dad.
then we left for the rest of the trip back home.
we got back around 345 and then blair and i had to go to walmart to buy mothers day cards.
it took forever and didnt get home untill 430.
the parentals werent home so i showered and got ready for the show at marquee.
finally like 5 minuted before blair picked me up, my family came home.
so i told my mom happy mothers day and left.
blair and i started to drive to the marquee.
we called daniel who's phone wasnt working so he couldnt hear us,
and then we called evan and his phone went straight to voicemail "meow".
we got to the marquee at like 630 and found richard.
blair and i went to the ticketbox and got our lil red ticket thing since we were on the guestlist.
we got in and found our spots, right in front of matt and evan.
we stood there for awhile.
evan walked on stage and saw me so he came out and gave me a huge hug.
then matt and jack saw us too and waved.
matt was in a much better mood than the previous night.
i talked to the security guards and mentioned to them my idea about become a bouncer. they laughed in my face.
tickertape parade opened and did really well.
next on was steel train.
they did sooooo good.
my god.
it was by far the best ive seen them play and ive seen them quite a few times.
i got some really great pictures that i'll post prolly tomorrow.
i was sad when steel train's set was over cause that meant it was time for the format. i was really actually scared to watch them, especially being so close.
i mean, the last time i saw them was at edgefest when i almost got killed.
and i didnt want to leave another format show with a black eye.
luckily their was no pushing or attempted moshing/crowd surfing.
so that made me happy.
nate was way drunk and overll just pisses me off.
he bashes phoenix at the flagstaff show and in the tribune,
yet he couldnt stop talking about how much he loves to play phoenix.
jackass.
evan called towards the end of the showing saying he wants us to hang out after the show.
when the format was over we made our way outside,
me slapping jacks ass in the meantime and saying a quick hello to matt and daniel at the merch table.
we walked outside and met evan at their van.
we pulled him around on his skateboard around the parking lot,
promoted the street team to some people who stopped to tell evan how much he rocked. when it was time to load up the van,
blair and i talked to matt from el oso negro who played the slide guitar on one of the format songs.
he was way tired.
then we talked to matt for a bit and then just talked to random people.
evan told us to come back to the hotel with them,
so after they were done loading, blair, daniel, evan and i drove in blairs car to the hotel.
well to a qt first cause we couldnt find the hotel.
daniel got directions from sam and we found the hotel.
evan, blair, daniel and i hung out in the van for a bit while everyone else went to bed.
they had to wake up at 645 this morning to play on good morning arizona (which i forgot to tape).
after we hung out in the van we went up into the room and watched some movie with scott.
then blair and i left cause we had school in like 4 hours. lol.
it was an amazing weekend.
but it also made me really sad because they wont be back in az for a long long time. which makes me hope more that we'll be able to go to the texas shows.
tonight is the format and limbeck show.
be prepared to see some crazy armadillo racing going on with patrick. lol.
i miss robb.

watching national treasure. great movie. it plays the first single too.

i have a headache.

my brother is annoying me.

i want it to be saturday now.

you know what would be cool?

stelth garbage trucks. im sitting here in my room, listening to steel train (fairly loud) and a garbage trucj drives by. and the entire time its coasting by, i cant hear anything except the god-forsaken trash truck. its lame.


i got hit in the face today by a horse-fly. i freaked out. sicko.

i believe im going to get subway again today. freaken good thats for sure.

3 more days untill the roadtrip. im so freaking excited. you have no clue.

so i was out and about today posting steel train fliers and somehow managed to brush my arm against a damn cactus. it hurts sooooooooo freaking bad. boo. my pictures are funny though.

Seven things in your room:
1. dead rose
2. concert memorobilia
3. clothes
4. dvds
5. a bed
6. a light
7. fan

Seven things to do before death:
1. become famous
2. Have kids
3. get married
4. travel the world
5. Skydive
6. be successful
7. stay true to myself

Seven things that attract you to someone:
1. lips and teeth
2. Body
3. Eyes
4. Sense of humor
5. hair
6. style
7. personality

Top seven things you say most:
1. classy
2. fuck
3. That's hot
4. meh
5. dude
6. poop
7. steel train

Do You:
Smoke?: sometimes
Do drugs?: when the time calls
Pray?: nope
Been in love?: yes
Gone skinny dipping?: heck yes
Had a medical emergency?: not yet (knock on wood)
Had surgery?: nope
been to a bonfire? yes
Got Drunk: me? all the time
Played strip poker?: no. i strip without the need of losing at poker.
Gotten beaten up?: no
Beaten someone up?: yes
Been on stage?: not for years
Slept outdoors?: sure
Pulled an all nighter?: Those are my favorite
If yes, what is your record?: somewhere in the days
Made out with a stranger?: few times
Been on radio/tv?: both
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?:yes

About You:
Three words that sum you up: sarcastic. honest. funny
Wallet: black faux leather with red stars
Coffee: yes please. starbucks only though
Shoes: i love shoes
Cologne/Perfume: victoria secrets
Clothing you have on: polka-dot tee and senior frog shorts

In the last 24 Hours have you....:
Cried: nope.
Bought something: subway
Gotten sick: had a cold for the past couple weeks
Sang: im singing right now
Been kissed: no
Felt stupid: i am stupid
Wanted to tell someone you love them, but didn’t: nope
Talked to an ex: sorta
Had a serious talk: nope
Missed someone: Oh Yeah
Hugged someone: yes
Social Life: i am a fuckin social butterfly
Status: ......
Car you drive: 96 jeep cherokee
Would you rather be with friends or on a date: right now? out with friends unless im with one person inparticular (kristi knows who)
Job: unemployed
Attend church: never
Like being around people: sometimes

Last :
Thing you ate: water. we have no food in my house
Thing you drank: water
Place you went: subway
Person you hugged: daddy
Person you talked to: greg
Person you IMed: kristi... then she signed off
Song you heard: steel train- grace. i love this song.

Currents:
Current Mood: a lil sleepy. ive been in a wierd mood all day
Current Taste: I cant taste anything
Current Hair: messy
Current Worry: no worries really. just stressed over finals.

Miscellaneous:
Are you artistic: sometimes
Are you athletic: not so much. i can be though. i like to play football with the boys
Are you a brat: well to be honest yes
Do you like spiders: no
Can you do anything freakish with your body: no
If you could be anywhere, where would you be?: in someones arms...

1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME (Name of first pet / First street you lived on): homer via trompeta
2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME (Name of your favorite snack food / Grandfather's first name): nerds jim
3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME (First word you see on your left / Favorite restaurant): Player Taglianis
4. EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS (Favorite Spice / Last Foreign Vacation Spot): paprika mexico
5. SOCIALITE ALIAS (Silliest Childhood Nickname / Town Where You First Partied): re-animal rsm
6. "FLY Boy" ALIAS (a la J. Lo) (First Initial / First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name): R. Car
7. ICON ALIAS (Something Sweet Within Sight / Any Liquid in Your Kitchen): Soda Water (hahaha)
8. DETECTIVE ALIAS (Favorite Baby Animal / Where You Went to High School): tiger trabuco hills/ mountain ridge
9. BARFLY ALIAS (Last Snack Food You Ate / Your Favorite Alcoholic Drink): otter pop bud light
10. SOAP OPERA ALIAS (Middle Name / Street Where You Live): lone cactus (i dont have a middle name)

 

 

 

im really bored. my list of chores to do for money this weekend is insane. i freaking have to be a slave to my family. it'll be worth it though

my sister and i.
cant really see it but im doing a poll dance.
cool plane
walking down da street
me, my mommy, and sista
waterfalls are cool
scandelous club 33
me, sis, and fasha in some car
me coloring on the ground with bert and mary poppins and little kids
random benches are neat
i hate autopia
my mommys is an astronaut
i sleep on benches.

( imatschool )

( c'mon all the cool kids are doing it )

( bored )

wow. so the past few days have been crazy.

THURSDAY
i woke up at 330am.
showered and finished packing.
left.
listened to limbeck, reubens, and steel train all the way to ca.
got to ca around 12pm.
checked into hotel.
went to california adventure and went on tower of terror like 3579057809385 times.
went to mexicasa for dinner.
and drove around looking at my parents old neighborhood
and the house i lived in until i was 6.
my mom pointed out gwen stefani's old house so that was cool.
went back to hotel room and slept.

FRIDAY
woke up at 730.
showered.
ate a hashbrown.
went to disneyland.
did a poll dance in front of the castle.
colored on the ground with bert from mary poppins.
sprinted through disneyland into ca adventure
went on tower of terror one last time.
poll danced on the faux hollywood sign.
did cartwheels down the faux street.
bought fudge and chocolate covered pretzels.
went to bed around 1ish.

SATURDAY
woke up around 930.
got ready.
got in the car and dad started driving home.
drove through my old neighborhood that i lived in untill i was 16.
it made me sad.
the neighborhood looked fantastic and it was all so green.
the ride home was quiet.
went to in'n'out.
i got fries and a shake.
dad doesnt quite understand the vegetarian thing.
got home around 830.
called kristi.
kristi and i went over to nick and paul's apt.
jeff was there but then he left and nate came.
we all hung out and watched americas funniest home videos.
not funny.
drank a lil.
i really missed those boys.


steel train this weekend!!!

im officially the new phoenix rep for steel train!!!

so this will be my last post for awhile.
im leaving tomorrow morning.
but no worries.
i shall be home sunday.

im going to hollywood next saturday with richard for the steel train show (it's gonna be a blast).
BLAIR YOU HAVE TO COME!!!!!
then steel train at the marquee.

im happy.
but still kinda sick.
i miss kristi.
but she knows that.
we only tell each other like everyday.
kristi, have fun at nate's show.
tell everyone hi for me and that i miss them.
make sure to say hi to "eminem" for me. haha, the real slim shady.

talk to you all monday!!

Your dating personality profile: Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate. Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life. Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.

Your date match profile: Outgoing - Shy and timid people are not who you are after. You need someone with a vibrant personality to breathe life into a relationship. Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living. Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Liberal 2. Adventurous 3. Athletic 4. Shy 5. Sensual 6. Big-Hearted 7. Practical 8. Funny 9. Stylish 10. Wealthy/Ambitious

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so i went to lunch with my mom today.

we had a really good talk.
it's been awhile since she and i have really "talked".
she told me that she's been real worried about me lately.
she said that at times she and my dad would stay up at night crying.
they want me to go get help about my depression.
i think i should.
she told me that she thinks it would be best for me to get out of arizona asap.
i concur.
she told me that i need to stop analyzing every aspect of my life.
and to stop trying to make something of myself
and just live my life.
she wants me to be a student
and to have fun
and only work to pay for my trip around the world.
she told me to just relax
and to get into a routine.
i need to start working out


this made me feel better.
i told her that i just want to be happy for once.

no more drugs.
this is it im done.
i only took 2lorazeparn and i fucked up.
and what doesnt help is that im sick.
bah. i have a headache.
and now im depressed.
what the fuck.
they're are so many things running through my mind
and i just cant comprehend.
i dunno.
poop.

im sick. poop.